Then.

My eyes are not beside you,
But why are my worries true?
My heart is not beside you,
But why do i feel you blue?

The pianist who played his swan song then,
Yet today it’s only one audience.
A conversation brought me to 5 years back.
Long way back, half a decade to begin in.

Yet today we reminisce the times,
And how i wish we were back then,
But if not for the past,
It wouldn’t have brought me to where i am today.

Everyday we walk a step,
We learn something.
If tomorrow never comes,
I’m thankful that day, five years ago, i had you as my audience.

Hard.

I think i’m well rested already.
Slacked the whole day and slept the entire afternoon.
God took my time yesterday,
I didn’t heed his advice.

I’m feeling no stress at the moment,
Maybe because the time is not right yet.
I used to be hardworking,
Now i think i don’t really bother.

But…

Tomorrow onwards for the next 2 weeks,
I shall work my hardest and see if i can improve my standing.

Here’s my plan:

To wake up at 7.30am,
Shower and get ready to study at 8am.

Studying Times:
8am till 12pm.
2pm till 6pm.
8pm till 12am.

Will not be online at these times,
Not picking up mobile or replying smses.
but you can find me at the other times.

Time to slp now.
Work hard!!

Quit.

After almost a year there,
I’m calling it quits.
Time to move on to a new environment.

As i went around to bid my farewell,
I think now is actually the right time to leave.
I wanna leave when i still feel attached to the company,
Rather than leaving when i don’t even bother about anything.

Everyone is happy for me when they know i’m gonna have a better future,
And i’m waiting excitedly to join the new co on the 20th April.
Whatever you are upset with, you don’t necessary need to voice it out.

I’ve dug out all the motivations from my old dusty self,
Time to work hard now and prove to myself that i’m moving the right way.
I got to speak to many people these period of time,
And thank them for having the patience.

Spoke to my office mama yesterday for a short while,
She is very happy for me and know that this is what i really wanna do.
and spoke to my lecturer after class yesterday too.
Both gave me lots of pointers to learn and told me to take my time to learn.

Now no more unhappiness,
I think i left on a good note with all my counterparts in the co.
Except the lab,
I think probably they are still in shock.

I haven gave them a chance to talk to me,
Neither did i let them do anything to me.
No negotiation, just let me go.
Pretty mean move, but i think they deserve it.

Enough about them.

Now i’m joining the new Co,
I like the place there already.
Got my best buddy working near me,
Uni classmates around the few blocks,
Yesterday i even got a phone call from a poly old friend,
She is actually working in the same office as me!!

How small can the world be?

Now will be a tough time,
But for the sake of my ultimate goal,
I think i should bite through and tahan.

Will be on 2 wks break for exams,
Then it’s time to dump the blue polo tee for office wear!

Shopping next week

No.

These few weeks have been a tough one,
And i’m just glad that i had my thoughts all settled properly
And came to a decision.

Peeps said i’m borned with luck,
So naturally, i’ve always been lucky.
Even at my lowest times,
I’m still able to find a way out.

Speaking to the right people indeed helps me lots.
Esp when i’m lost and speaking to my own lecturer,
Because of the similarity in the industry,
He’s the best advisor to my career move.

Since the decision is being made,
Then don’t wonder if you will regret or not.
All these matters should have been done last week.
Now, just sit back and focus on the more important stuffs.

Will be having exams in 2wks time
Not started.
Wonder how many Ds i’ll be scoring.
Hahaha..
Need more luck in studying.

Now is my turn to sit back,
And see how the others react.
Let’s see who has the last laugh.

One yr ago,
I was an innocent boy.
One yr on,
I think i have grown more.
Learnt all the mistakes.
Learnt more on coping with stress,
With people,
With problems.

I’m happy once again.

Fog.

Unhappy.
Decided to do a “Earth Hours” myself.
Wanna be alone for awhile.

Calls will be ignored.
Msgs will not be replied.
Msn will be offline.
Emails will not be replied.

People who knows me well,
Just knows how and where to find me.

Aged.

The white hairs are growing out more often now,
Must be the work on hand,
Which keeps piling on,
No matter how hard i try to complete my work.

Work will never end,
As they always said.
But i still hope to be able to complete everything for the week,
Then enjoy my weekends.

Maybe after a year around here,
Built a comfort zone around my daily routine,
Wondering what is my next challenge.

Exams are coming in three weeks time.
Gonna start today and head out for my revision.
Tough to stay awake at home.

This week has been a rough one,
With people spoiling it on monday night.
Sigh.
But it’s over. I’m done with that episode.

Morale of the story is to be direct,
Because everyone is defensive and sensitive,
If you try to be considerate and think for the other party,
They won’t appreciate anyway.

Speechless.

I have never met people so inconsiderate, so selfish and so clueless about everything.
I find even more amusing that after so much consideration, i still decided to tell her.
What’s more amusing was i predicted her reaction, and that’s why i laughed while talking.
Tomorrow, silly rumours will spread again. What’s new?

I have a colleague,
She’s sick since last week.
Throughout the whole week, she was coughing so badly,
SHE DIDN’T REALISED I’M SITTING THERE~

So today, i had enough.
So i told her that her cough is bad.
Naturally, people will start covering up (i mean naturally)
But she continued coughing in my direction
(unfortunately our computers are facing each other)

I decided to tell her.
So i kept thinking how to tell her without making her feel bad,
Or making myself look stupid.
In the end, i thought maybe leaving a sms for her will be better.

DANG!!~ wrong choice..!!
Once again, she made look like the dumbest fool on earth.
I know once this entry is published,
There will be many “winds” around. but who cares!!

After that, online, i was thinking should i tell her,
(since she deleted me off her msn!! dun ask me how i know)
So i thought after a long time (about 1.5hrs),
I MUST TELL HER.

THEN???

first, she diverted the topic by saying others are sick,
Then she said according to GMP, blah blah blah..
Then she said according to cleanroom standard, blah blah blah,
Then i got pissed off (but cooled down almost immediately cos i knoe the typical replies)

I sort of expected every single reply coming in.
So i told her that everyone is falling ill in the office
Then she got sensitive, thinking i’m saying she’s the root cause.
So to get her to focus on her personal hygiene,
I told her that the main point is she’s coughing in MY direction.

Next, her reply was:
So.. you are worried about yourself ar?

i was like.
OMG~
When was the last time i met a EQ below the level of a…
a….
i can’t describe.

But live and let lived.
Since you anticipate this kinda reception,
Then don’t blame yourself.
To tackle such people,
Be straight to the point, and don’t let her have a chance to argue,
For the sake of arguing.

One funny thing i heard,
“Even if i’m coughing directly, it’s only at my monitor”
OMG x 2,
My sis was laughing so hard beside me.

As if germs don’t spread.

for OMG x 3,
I got another reply:
“I was not trained”
The crazy girl in my room continued laughing out loud.

I almost died laughing with her.
Yes, i am a meanie.
But if u were at my seat,
You probably faint.

Now i’m having a cough,
I blame myself for not throwing a tissue at her.
For not being direct.
Thought i should have just been direct.

I’m in deep trouble.
But i feel good.
At least i get my god damn point across to her.

Mangoes.

A mother told her son to go to the mango plantation to pick a big mango for dessert.
Till nightfall, the mom was worried when her son had not returned then.
After getting the villagers, they finally found him sitting at the end of the mango plantation.
There were a number of mangoes on the ground.
His mom asked him why did he pluck so many mangoes but did not return home.
He said.
“After plucking the one in the 2nd row, i saw another bigger one on the 3rd row. Then after plucking the next mango, i found the 5th row’s mangoes bigger, etc…”

Used perfectly in me.
Never contented when the best was in 2nd row.
Now?
Perhaps i’m at the back of the plantation, with nothing in my hands at all.

Maybe i can walk back to the front again.
But this time, should i walk from the back to the front?
Or run back to the front, and start from beginning all over again?

Let me think through.
Will update the next time.

Battle.

We all know it’s neva easy, but no one said it was that difficult,
So does it stop me from moving on?
I don’t think so.

It’s been awhile and i guessed i’ve neglected this site for VisiaSG,
A new lifestyle company which i’ve set up after a long period of consideration.
Received some very warm welcome from good pals,
And i even had the chance to talk to very old friends of mine.

From the President Barack Obama of the United States said once:
Changes will not come if we wait for some other person,
Or some other time.
We are the ones we have been waiting for.
We are the change that we seek.

Just when i have finalised my final team,
Someone pulled out,
Another told me she’s only gonna put it up for 3 issues.
Problem No 1 with new set up company? – Manpower.

But no time to waste anymore,
And i can’t let people dragging me down.
No one is indispensible in the world,
Even myself.

It’s just who take their chances,
And who doesn’t.
Rather be safe than sorry?
Or wished i had done it then and live to regret?

I told myself this yr,
As long as i can answer to my own conscience,
I don’t see a need to answer to yours.
As long as i tried my best.

My best may not be the best you are looking for,
But ask yourself if you can do better than me.
I need to keep my cool nowadays,
Since i’m an entreprenuer, i need to be open to criticism.

People can say whatever they want,
But it’s up to you to filter whatever they said.
Be open about everything,
Even if they look at you in another perspective.

I’m not worried to fail,
Though i don’t like to,
I’m not worried i can’t climb up again,
It will just take a while longer.

I know it’s tough,
I know people doubt my capabilities to lead a team,
Many of us have very fantastic business ideas,
We just didn’t have the guts to carry on.

Probably due to age,
Probably due to fear.
But once we dumped everything aside,
What’s left is a knight in shining armour.

Here’s what i hope to tell my team, if they are reading:
If you follow me, I may lead you straight to hell,
But if you trust me, I will lead you back out again.

I know ms australia is wishing me all the best. Thanks, my secret friend.

Struggle.

It’s really not easy.
The first task is to gather everyone.
I cannot give up halfway,
I can only hope to seek for better luck.

To give up precious personal time,
to assist me in my company without payroll.
I can only use friendship as my best reason to hire you.

I’m thankful though to meet some very supportive friends,
who agreed even after knowing there’s no pay,
And may even fail.
But if i don’t try now, i may not have the courage anymore.