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So after a long while,
I finally had time to do a little updates about myself,
I have so much things going on in my life,
I realli have no idea where to start.

Just to summarise:
Life is good to me and has always been good.
Just need to learn to appreciate more with my ears than my mouth.
That’s why God gives you 2 ears and 1 mouth.

As i continue my BM life,
Boss thinks highly of me,
Fellow colleagues are loving me,
The entire office is filled with my nonsense.

We worked hard,
And we enjoy the fruits of our labour.
All of us having this deep passion for the job,
And we received the recognition from our boss.

The managers leading me are helpful and supportive,
And in return, i made life in office brighter,
With laughters and jokes.
This is indeed an eye-opener for me.

There are many things i wish to go on,
But Bennie says my entries are too long.
Next is studies.
Yup, and tat’s about it. Period.

ShanG has took a further step into building our foundation.
I’m currently in talks with 2 great companies,
Forming a partnership which will increase exposure of our companies.
I’m loving it~

Right now, the only thing holding me back,
Is my studies.
ONE MORE YEAR TO GO.
sucks.

Since Jan to now,
I will not say i walked a very rocky path,
As i’m pretty blessed this life.
Except the people whom i called “friends”.

I just can’t understand how peeps can have their mobile phones,
But reply a sms like 2 days later.
And i always hated people who doesn’t reply to my msn.
NOTE: it’s not later, it’s NEVER.

Well, if it’s an important friend,
Probably we won’t do that.
Ah well, maybe i’m not so important afterall.

But then again,
When i run forward a few steps,
And turn back.

I see the regrets on their faces,
I see them spending their time doing useless stuffs,
I see them doing nothing constructive in fact.
But it’s their lives.

To me, opportunity only knocks once.
Maybe some people won’t be bothered by this,
But to me,
I pity these bunch of aimless souls.

BUT BUT BUT BUT…

For those crazy guys who are in this with me,
Are certainly giving me the full assistance that they have.
And I appreciate them so much.
Let’s hope for a good run from now on.

Clarine @ 10.30am.
Shucks, i’m still home in my PJ.

If you wanna get help,
Do make sure you get the proper help.
Don’t get some, just because they are your good friends,
But can’t help you reach your dreams.

Some of my friends are like this.
When you created the first impossible dream,
And when you approach them,
They felt kinda ashamed.

But when they slowly see the dream forming,
They start approaching you,
Asking this and that,
Like as if everything interests them now.

And also,
A personal favour should be made to a personal friend.
NOT someone whom you treat that person.
Cos the person probably just treats you as a bouncing ball.

And this is not the first time.

But anyway,
Open my eyes wider,
And it’s time to stop using the heart.
Time to use my brain to work.

If they hardly see me,
I will not have so much conflicts with them.
Maybe there will be more peace at home.
Not because they quarrel with me,
But because i don’t quarrel with them.

Honestly, i’m quite a sensitive freak.
I think too much to many things,
Including the previous post.
Still blindly thinking got hope.

Maybe i’m too money-minded now,
And Orangjuice said im’ still young, and childish,
No need to worry.
Yea.. Must tell myself that money is more important.

I think i’m really childish,
I can’t handle simple problems well.
Today at work, i was filled to the brim,
I almost wanted to burst out but controlled it down.

Running is not an excuse,
But keeping a distance seems to be perfect then.
The matter will never quit,
That’s why running is always tired.

Yet there is no good time to face it.

Many people would have thought we were together long ago,
Many too thought we look cute together.
Because between us,
We are true to each other, and supporting one another.

The little squabbles we had,
The smses of working hard together,
The dream of opening our own kopitiam,
The dreams of the many dreams we hope together.

Because i never once look down on you,
You look up to me.
Because i never once let you go,
You shared your heart with me.

You never once said nice things about me till yesterday.
You never once teared in front of me till yesterday.
You never once came early till yesterday.
And i never once felt helpess… till yesterday.

After so long,
Eventually we are together, yet not together.
The laughters, jokes, cranky talk and silly thinkings,
We dream the impossible, and you made that dream for me.

Right now, i hope you dearly as i held you then,
And i realised i can’t get rid of the simple girl,
Because of your simplicity,
You made being with you so enjoyable, and so sweet.

This is the only reason why i’m single,
This is also why you never hear i have a gf,
This is why i never tell you about love,
Because Love is here when we are together.

Honestly, i never understand LOVE very well.
But i know the sweetness of your smiles,
I know i dream the laughters of yours,
And i like just being with you.

And i just love you of who you were then,
Who you are now,
And who you will be in future.

We may never be together,
I may never go after you again,
I just hope not to destroy what we have,
I would prefer the “said nothing but wishing i had”,
than the “said something and wish i never had”.

As i told you,
Even if the whole world is against you,
I will still be by your side,
Building a world i call it “your own”.

Amids the seas of grammar errors,
These words came and touched my heart.
You are special, just being youself.
With no makeup, no pretences, just you and me.

“Really thanks for everything. A frenz (sic) like you is really hard to gt.
N I feel realli lucky. Last time i didn’t appreciate you in poly, always think
u r v petty. But i realised i’m wrong. So sry abt it.”

“……Don’t worry, i m strong. I alr go through things tt is worst than tt. I can take it”

Heading out is just a waste of money,
Staying home i can’t rest properly.
The room is in a mess yet i’m not packing,
Eventually till they scream then i’ll get moving.

Last night was the first time in my life,
I had a chat with my younger sis.
And it’s pretty funny cos,
We were talking on msn, though we’re just a room apart.

To prevent myself from thinking too much stuffs,
I bury myself in work, continue my biz,
But the recent spat of problems,
Has distracted me and my performance.

I packed my table just five days ago,
And threw all the trash in my trashbag.
Everything was packed and clean.
I came home last night, to face a series of horror.

My table looked like it got trashed up,
My room looked like the tamil tigers came,
My walls looked like it’s gonna fall apart.
All over the installation of one aircon.

Now i’m still using the dusty table,
I didn’t bother packing.
Kept them away from my room,
By lying that i’ll pack up later.

Today is Labour Day,
I felt more tired as the hours gone by.
Now is 3pm, and i’m only awake for the past 3 hrs.
- Big Sigh-

The more i see the aircon in my room,
The anger in me just grows.
I wanna smash it up,
But it costs me $800.

No one asked for payment,
But i think if everyone wants to enjoy,
Then we should help to chip in.
Maybe it’s just me who feels it this way.

I keep quiet,
I think less than 10 sentences a day.
I can’t ACT excited just because a new fridge came in,
Or just because i’m having an aircon.

I just can’t ACT at home,
All the trainings i had at work,
All the experiences i had at work,
All boils down to me feeling stupid acting.

There are friends whom i realli treasured,
Always wanna kept in touch,
But i’m tired of trying to keep contacting them.
All the people who didn’t bother to reply my smses.

For those who replied,
I’m busy,
I got church,
Not free.

And these were the people i once hold dear,
Now i didn’t bother anymore.
I used to like planning for gatherings,
Now i just look for people who looks for me.

Sick and tired of so many things,
I just wanna be alone.
Just in my own corner,
Doing my own things, at my own pace.

I read this awhile ago,
“People starts envying others,
Because they compare what they don’t have,
With what other people have.”

Why do so many people envy me?
These superficial views of me.
Envy my job,
Envy my outgoing character,
Envy my style of talking,
Envy my knowledge.

What’s there to envy?
I’m still me,
I still prefer to hang around in heartland areas.

Someone told me,
He don’t dare to hang out with me,
Because i’m now having a higher salary,
I MAY look down on him.

So i told him,
Don’t tell me this,
You just made me look down you,
For looking down on me.

I deserve my better pay,
Because i worked hard for it.
I was headhunted,
Because i proved myself for it.

People think Life is a bed of roses for me,
I just think i have the slight edge because of luck,
Other than that,
Maybe i put more effort than you.

Lastly, a phone call last night disturbed me.
This girl left me for a more handsome guy.
Then the guy cheated on her while she was doing her attachment in Australia.
Now she asking me out for a date.

Direct huh?
I may not be handsome,
At least i’m faithful to my girlfriends.
I may have alot of female friends,
But each time, only one girl can be in my heart.

I won’t rush to get in the lift,
I don’t mind even if i missed it and had to wait for the next one.
I take my time to press the button,
And take my time to reach the door.

Then the moment i open the door,
I speed up.
After keeping my shoes and greeting my parents,
I will get into my room.

Hear that no one is occupying the toilet,
Then hurry up take my bath,
And get back inside the room again.

Yup, this is it.
Quiet.
A little too quiet,
But i think they prefer it this way.

Today i was watching tv and happened to flip over to channel U
Saw a bunch of small kids singing love songs,
Which gave me the chills and left me utterly disgusted.
But then it set me thinking.

Many would have said they are too young to sing such songs,
They are shameless enough to be singing such songs,
But i beg to differ,
In fact i think they should sing love songs.

Just because you are older in age,
Doesn’t mean if you got another half, then it’s true love.
For me, i think true love was during sch days.
That’s when love was pure and expect nothing in return.

That was when you blushed when you hold her hands,
When you both hold hands and feel so happy just walking at heartland malls,
Going to school together, sitting in bus,
Quarrelling only to make up after recess.

Those days were sweet, but unfortunately long gone.
Now? we look for partners who can provide for us.
Where got girls still interested to sit in mac with you to talk?
If you got no car, who wanna squeeze in the warm bus with you?

Life is that realistic.
In the past, walking was a pleasure.
Now?
Walking becomes a chore.

Comparing to the then and now,
Don’t you think when you were younger,
Those days u termed “puppy love”,
Were actually the days of our lives?

Now?
My conversation hardly leaves the word “money”,
I became more realistic and practical.
Love can wait.

In my sec sch days,
Were the days i enjoyed the most.
Who cares it’s a neighbourhood school?
Many of my friends are doing so well in Life now.

Life has been realli good for me.
Some people have been saying that i’m so lucky.
Always meeting the good stuffs.
But well, Life is fair.

You take some, you lose some.

Gotta work tomorrow.
First day in smart wear.
Feels uncomfortable,
Though i know i will look GOOD