Round.

I thank you for what you said,
What happened when i first started?
9mths later,
What’s happening now?

It’s no longer the same.
Yes.
It’s true.

Is this my real self?
Or have i been blinded.
Have i forgotten what i said to myself,
To stay away from trouble.

It’s just me, isn’t it?
Ultimately, it is about me.

I have blinded myself,
With the things i do,
With the words i say,
With the thoughts i think.

It’s everywhere,
We all know that.

But i can’t disappoint them.
Fairy joy, Jas Bee, Niang zi.
The people who didn’t rub salt to the wound,
Who didn’t sprinkle sugar just to make me feel better.

But you use your heart to melt the evil in me.
You use your care to calm the beast in me.
You use your wishes to protect me.

静.

Before i wake up tomorrow morning,
Let me go back to then.
Niang zi, Wendy, Helen and me.
And let me wake up to be a better person.

~ by Kel on December 22, 2008.